the gondola and the maze

i was riding a gondola down over a mountain with my mom and sister. we were high, high up in the mountains. everything we could see was gray- we were completely surrounded by fog, and here and there the craggy sides and tops of mountains showed through. the gondola was heading down and started going faster and faster like a roller coaster until we were in free fall. i started screaming. when we got to the end, the gondola hit a stop in the cable and swung up so high i thought i'd fall out of my seat. when we swung back down, an attendant grabbed us by our shoulders and clipped us back on the line, like clothing hung to dry. the cables went up as quickly and steeply as they came down. my mother and sister were clipped securely into harnesses, but i only had a little handle to hang from. i gripped it with white knuckles. suddenly, my cable branched away from my mom and sister. the cable stretched out in front of me, but it was slack and flailing. i couldnt tell what direction i was falling in, everything was fog and stone around me with peaks pointing every way. i spiraled down, screaming.
finally, i came to the end of the line, and was thrust into a hole bored into the side of a mountain. it was dark. something small scurried by. i felt my way back to the opening. it was a little cave with lots of small holes covered by iron grates covered with images of rabbits. i figured thats what must have run by in the dark. the rope which had brought be here was coiled sloppily in the corner, a flashlight tied at the end. i took the flashlight. i saw that i was in an ice cave. the flashlight lit everything suprisingly well, or else the cave was lit by some internal light. i saw little holes along the walls but when i tried to reach or crawl into them invisible flames blocked my path. eventually i came down into a kitchen. the floors and walls and appliances all looked old, and the bodies of rabbits were everywhere in various stages of being cooked. i couldnt tell if they were being cooked by humans or other rabbits, or whether those others were aware of my presence. the whole scene creeped me out. i went out through the hall, which was just as dusty and creepy as the kitchen. it was lined with cabinets on one side and doors on the other. under a chair, i saw a cat hiding. i flicked at it with my handkerchief, and it came out. it looked animatronic at first but began to look more real. i asked it a question. it couldnt talk but answered somehow and i understood it. it led me into another room- a living room filled with items like a flea market. i sifted through them and found things to take- small things like blouses and shampoo, and stuffed them into my backpack. when that was full i found another mini backpack, crocheted from black yarn, and filled it, too. i was nervous that i was being watched and would somehow be punished for taking the things but i took them anyway. there were other people wandering around by then too. i was trying to text my mom to tell her that i was ok. i didnt have any service but was able to communicate telepathically with eric. i told him to tell mom where i was. i couldnt tell if i was almost out of the labyrinth or only at the beginning.

the moon

i was on the moon. it was a civilized moon. it was tropically warm and drizzly, and it was always dark. i was riding in the backseat of my mom's car, watching the scenery go by in twilight. i was going to a school dance. i waited inside of the school gymnasium with my mom and aunt mia, sitting in metal folding chairs. a line of orange cones separated the chairs from the dance floor, which required tickets. mom and mia said they werent going. someone approached and said i'd been chosen to participate in an experiment, to fly to earth in a satellite. i accepted. i felt bad for abandoning my friends at the dance but i grabbed my backpack and a shoebox full of dry ice, which apparently i'd had all along, and went to join the satellite crew. 

i crossed a swinging bridge with the other volunteers, carrying my shoebox, to the boarding platform. i was a little afraid. i wondered what part of the trip was an experiment. 

the satellite's interior was hexagonal, with pods on each wall for each of the participants. there were large windows, too. i was told to get into my pod, and the lid came down and sealed around me. i worried that i should have peed first. they said that the trip would take 6 months, and that we'd be spending it in a suspended sleep state, but that halfway there we would wake up to experience 0 gravity. i guess i fell asleep then. 

next, we were deep in space. i opened my pod. the satellite's interior had been painted with a special paint that made it transparent, so it looked like we were just floating out in space. we were weightless. i looked out and saw the earth and started to cry. i couldnt understand how the earth could be there without me, while i was out all alone. 

the whales

We were all running from a battle with a rival gang. down through the alleyways, trying to lose our pursuers. we were downtown and came up head on with a chinese new year parade. we ducked down another side street and kept running. emerald and i got away from the others. it was dark, we were running down a path of paved grass along the river. the moonlight was bright. i figured nobody had followed us that ar and decided to sit and look at the river. upstream i could see little ripply shapes, coming closer. as they came nearer i could see that they were dolphins- lots of them. then i heard some people coming toward us down the path. it was the group of drunks i saw out the window before i fell asleep. afraid they might be coming for us, i watched them go by. just drunk, i decided- not a threat. when they had passed i turned back to the river. the dolphins had passed, as well. i was angry to have missed them but then i saw something else in the water. bigger shapes, moving slower. whales. they came up to the bank, and i put my hands down and pet their backs. their skin was covered in scars and graffiti like a carved up tree trunk, signed with peoples names. someone next to me reached down with a big orange marker. i yelled and knocked it into the water. then the whales started coming onto the shore, out of the water, where they slowly turned into tan and white spotted cows. they were surrounded by a soft glow. the cows gathered down n a clearing at the end of the path. next to the herd was a group of people in robes dancing and chanting in a circle. it was light now and we were in a finely manicured park carpeted with plush grass and encircled by large topiaries and shining silver gates. there were beautifully dressed people everywhere. i realized they were having a wedding.

the crystals, the beach house, the schoolyard, the unicorn

i was in a strange town near a school. my sister was there, and some others- i think my dad too. we were all sitting around a picnic table and my sister was holding a giant geode. the whole thing, inside and out, was covered with incredible long purplish gray crystals. some of them were so long and thin that they swayed in the breeze like grass, making little chime sounds. where my sister held it and ran her hands over it, some of the crystals had broken off. she gave me one. it was thick and hollow and filled with some kind of liquid. around us, all of the buildings were covered in crystals and little succulents. i tried to photograph and video tape it, but people kept getting in the way and interrupting me.
later,
i was on vacation at a beach house with some friends. my sister, aunts, and their daughters were there too. my aunt had brought a very tiny dog and I had a bunch of cats with me. jasmine was there, among others. it felt good to pet her. i wanted to go out swimming, but nobody wanted to go with me. i went myself. the tide had gotten so high that it lapped right up against the house. i saw a pair of sandals getting washed away and went in after them, but instead of sandy beach it was all rocky tide pools. not wanting to step on anything spiky, i turned back. the sky was oddly gray.
i lit a bunch of candles on the mantle.
later,
i went on a trip with some others. it was kind of a long trip, like to scandinavia or somewhere. first i took a plane, and when i got to the airport a man was waiting for me. he took us to a ferry launch. it was in the middle of a huge open-air market. we didnt have time to check it out, just walked through to the ferry. it was beautiful, kind of like a renaissance faire, with little fairy lights everywhere. after the ferry, i think we took a train or caravan or something. our destination was a little town in the woods. as we walked through town, we passed a schoolyard full of strange beings. some looked human, but looked somehow two-dimensional and had bluish-gray skin. others looked more mythical. one glowing green and yellow with giant ram's horns on its head. there was also a glowing purple centaur. they looked like holograms. all were nude. the children of the school regarded them familiarly, as if there were nothing odd about their presence.
on the way home, i was watching a music video garitt made with is band (his girlfriend and some other guys). the video followed them skateboarding and biking down a narrow path- at first on the side of a mountain, then suspended in the sky. as it spiraled down they did tricks and sometimes fell off the edge into oblivion but then appeared back on the path later. when we got to the bottom suddenly it wasnt a video anymore but real. the path ended suspended over the water and everyone was jumping off. the path turned into a boat, and as the others urged me to jump from the water, it began to capsize. i jumped and it toppled over with me.
on the way back to the plane i had time to check out the little ferry town. next to the market area was a big grassy meadow, with ultra green grass that ran up the surrounding hills into a dense forest. it was full of groups of people. i decided to go for a run. i ran across the clearing and up to the top of the biggest hill, the edge of the forest. standing there was an all-white horse. i knew it was a unicorn. i tried to approach it but was repelled by an invisible force. the horse turned and stared at me. i continued on my run around the clearing and decided to make the loop twice. on my second pass by the unicorn i saw that it had been joined by another horse- this one gray with shaggy fur covered in mold and moss. behind the two horses was a wolf. i didnt stop, but continued down the hill. the wolf gave chase. i ran along a ridge with steep slopes on both sides, too steep to run down. the ridge dead-ended and i was trapped. i hid behind a log, and hen the wolf caught up, i hit him with a glass carafe full of water, like we use at work. the wolf attacked me from over the log and every time he lunged i hit him with the bottles (i suddenly had two). finally he gave up and i escaped back into the town. my mom was there and i told her about the journey.

the nazi takeover

while i was napping i dreamed that eric and i were on top of a big hill when i noticed a strange plane in the sky. it was moving around really quicky, looping around low to the ground. i thought it looked like some kind of fighter jet, then i saw another and then even more, and saw that they were shooting at each other. i saw lines of smoke in the sky and i was terrified, i thought they would shoot at us up there but i didn't know where to go to be safe. then one of the planes shot a missile straight at us. we ran and eric pulled me out of the way just in time. we ran down the mountain, there were broken wine glasses everywhere and people running and we ran away holding hands. when we got to the bottom somehow i had lost him. i found a kitchen knife to protect myself, it was total pandemonium and people were panicked. as i was walking a man grabbed the knife out of my back pocket and started coming after me. i found another knife, then there were two men coming, and i ran and escaped one and when the other one caught up to me, i sawed his head off with my knife. the knife was small and dull, and it took several seconds to saw through it. i told him there was no way i was going to die without seeing my family again. he fell to the ground like a heavy tree.
eric and i ran until it was dark until we found a house that looked safe. there were several people there including a young family with a baby who were hiding from the violence in the upstairs room. they said i could stay there. i turned and looked out the window to see a large bus driving by. it was all full of men in suits working on huge desktop computers. as the bus turned the men and computers folded up like the wheels of a plane into open space and disappeared. the men were tracking the locations of computers and other internet devices, which they sent probes out to destroy.
later i went to my mailbox. i had a ton of mail, including my grandfather's passport and several boxes of mac n cheese. i took the pasta to give to the children in the "safe" house, but i didn't know what to do with the passport. i decided to leave it there.
later, upstairs in the house, another girl and i were laying down to sleep. she had a psychic box that, if i laid down in front of it and closed my eyes, would tell me which chakras were out of alignment. the box told me something about my heart chakra wasn't lighting up completely, and i started to sob. there were nazi soldiers occupying the house at that point, and they watched me cry.
later i was on a bus with my family. the bus was rolling out of control down a hill as if it were on ice. the bus spun around and around, and we all hung on for our lives. we were all holding on to the top of the bus, sitting on top of it like we were riding it, and my mom fell off and hung on to the side. i was screaming and screaming, i thought we were all going to die, and my mom was screaming to my dad that she loved him, but finally the bus slowed and stopped. i ran to my family and cried and hugged them, and then i woke up.

the bright light

i was in the car and i dreamed that the light was so bright that even with my eyelids closed and my hands covering them, i could see everthing clearly

the 4th dimension

Somehow I ended up trapped in the 4th dimension. I was up on a hillside when the creatures attacked, and i flew down the hill and over a fence, which was a gateway back to my own dimension. I flew on and on until I reached California in the 3rd dimension, but I wasn't safe. once you have entered the 4th dimension, pieces of it follow you to whatever dimension you are in. I could see the two overlapping, the landscape of the 4th dimension looked like crystal mountains rising above the hills and buildings that i'm used to. shining above all was a giant eye- the keeper of the 4th dimension, the tyrant who was hunting me. sometimes it looked like a giant eye, sometimes it looked like a giant naked man, muscular and tanned like an aztec warrior, with hollow eyes scanning back and forth. I knew that I had to get moving, to get away. I was in the middle of a desert oasis. someone else was there, too- someone who hadn't been to the 4th dimension. the eye couldn't see through him, so I followed him along through the desert, always keeping his body between myself and the eye. we went along like this, but my foot or my head would stick out here and there, and the eye scanned by and saw me, and stared, and i could hear him coming toward me through space, reaching out. i ran, and just then some sort of vessel, like an airplane, flew between dimensions below me, and i jumped through the ground into the sky and landed on the plane. in between the dimensions the eye couldn't see me. i flew to new york and hid underground in an abandoned gallery. it was a maze of huge abandoned rooms, winding deeper and deeper into the ground. the eye couldnt see me there. as i walked through the rooms i came across other people hiding from the eye. one man had been caught and taken back to the 4th dimension, where his eyes were sucked out by the giant warrior. i realized that i would have to hide from the eye forever, and even down in the dark could feel him pursuing me.

the cave, the UFO

at one point, we were crossing this cave by, i don't know what you would call it, rapelling? we crossed the long caverns by attaching ourselves to thick lines that crossed deep chasms. we got to a particularly treacherous room, and as i pulled my harness up to attach to the room's line, some impulse overtook me and i took a huge bite out of my harness, which was made of licorice. i instantly realized afterward that doing so left me stranded in the cave.

later, we were in some sort of town square, and i was about to step into the local bar when the power went out. for some reason it really shook me up. the town seemed to me like the kind where things like that didn't happen often- good infrastructure, or something. i asked, how often does the power go out in this city? and someone answered me, never. when the lights came back on shortly, i realized what had disturbed me so much- in addition to the lights, the sky had turned dark as well. not like the clouds rolled in, but it became night where it was previously day. when the lights came back on, the sky became light again as well. i knew something was coming.
over the hill came some sort of flying polygonal entity, red, not flying like anything i know of in reality  but sort of drifting, changing shapes. its motion seemed to suggest intelligence, and though it had no visual features to distinguish a front or a face, i felt like it was looking down on us. i grabbed eric and we tried to escape. we started to fly, floating out above the town, as it launched some sort of missile which floated noncommittally over the town  before deciding on a place to land, i saw the plume of smoke rise from the spot like i was looking at it on a map- its funny how you can see the world from multiple perspectives in a dream, simultaneously on the ground and in the sky.
we flew away but i knew the thing was looking for us. when i could feel it looking at us, i pulled eric to the ground and we laid very still, hoping maybe that if we didnt move, it wouldnt see us. i think it worked, and when the thing turned we escaped behind its back.

the tower

i was climbing to the top of this big gym-type building, up spiral stairs that would around the inside courtyard of the building. when i got near the top, i saw someone climbing over the rail and jumping off, then another, and another. each time i heard the sound of their bodies hitting the floor, a flat slap. the sound seemed really shallow to me, and sickening. the top of the building was very windy and narrow. i suddenly felt very dizzy and got down on my hands and knees to keep myself from falling over the edge. just then, an earthquake started, and the building began to sway in deep arcs, tilting sideways. the edge was surrounded by a high chain-linked fence, which i clung to and climbed across to get to the stairwell again and get down the building.

later i went home to our new apartment on 20th and mission. there was a music festival in the alley up the block, i went down and there were all of our friends from sacramento watching teddy play.

the desert, the bridge

i went out in the desert to an old building on an indian reservation. inside, i floated through the rooms above the floor. someone else was in the building and i floated down to the floor and laid there like i was sleeping. when they found me, i pretended that i didnt know how i got there.
later i was with my sister on an invisible bridge in the sky and little airplanes flew all around, and i wished i was flying a little airplane too, because i was so bored.

Eric and I went to a small show. It was a small room, with a few people sitting around the walls. A young guy came in to the center of the room and started to play. It was pretty bad, and when he finished, everyone was so bored that they forgot to clap. Right as I was realizing he finished and about to clap, he flew into a rage. He yelled that his music wasn't good enough for us because we were snobs and things like that. I yelled back that he was being an asshole, to lighten up. He stormed over to me and I thought he was going to hit me so I kicked him  hard in the crotch. He fell away to the side, groaning. When he got up he came back over and blew some powder over me. He said it was a virus, that we would all get it. Next, a small package was ejected from a hidden space in the wall. It looked like a stereo, but when I opened the disk tray, it wasn't a disk tray but an ID scanner that read the soles of feet. I had a bad feeling about it. I thought it might be a bomb. Eric and I started to run and we could hear the guy laughing behind us that we couldn't get away.
We managed to get out of the building before the blast. There were people all around us, and when the bomb went off the people around us turned to zombies. They kept walking but in a straight line, just walking at a steady pace, no destination. We tried to keep ahead of them, but they were all around. We didn't know what they would do if they caught up to us, if anything. We ran to the top of a rocky hill and saw that they were all around us. There was nowhere else we could go. We decided to lay down in a crevice of the rock where nobody below could see, but we knew that at that moment the zombies were climbing the rock too and would soon be walking over us. We didn't know what else to do, so we just laid there together.
The zombies finally did come to our space at the top of the crag. There were four of them. Two settled on the ledge of our cliff, the others sat on the edge of the cliff opposite, whose lip was just a couple of feet from our own. They all sat there for a minute, right in front of us. I thought about pushing them off, but was too curious and petrified at the same time. I realized they were about to jump. When they did, just pushing themselves gently off the edge like they were getting out of a chair, I knew the two others would think we pushed them. They grabbed at us, trying to pull us off the ledge, but couldn't quite reach. We ran down the other side of the rock.
When we got to the bottom, we found ourselves again by the gate of the building. We had heard the explosion, but the building still stood. Now, the building extended on both sides, all around us, closing us inside a circle. We were trapped. We could hear the guy's voice all around us, coming through speakers or maybe just the air. We knew that if we stayed there eventually we would die.
Ahead, there was a large room. The voice called people into the room to play the most realistic and difficult game in the world. We went inside, if only just out of fear of what would come if we stayed out. Inside, people were suiting up for the game. Everyone had a large fake gun. Into the butt of the gun we were told to fasten razor blades, which would jab into our sides when we were shot. Terrified, I tried to drag Eric out of the room with me, but couldnt. I got out the door myself, and he was trapped inside to play.
There was a woman in uniform outside, a guard or something maybe. I asked what would happen to us here, if we would be killed. She said we wouldn't be killed, certainly, but there was no way out, at least, not that she knew of. My bravery partially restored, I snuck back into the video game room. The game had already started. Everyone sat in tall chairs that moved and rocked to simulate the movements of the game, and wore screened goggles that showed each the game from their individual perspectives. I sat in one of the chairs and pretended to play along. I couldn't see Eric. I didn't have goggles or  gun, but I could somehow see a little bit. We were rowing canoes across a river. When we got to the other side, we were on a racetrack. Pedals came out of the bottom of the seat. I couldn't really see, but the car I chose turned out to be a giant van. I went around the track a couple times. On accident, I ran over one of the other cars on the track. There was a horrible gridning sound, and when I looked around I saw one of the other players in his seat, his clothes almost totally ground off. Not wanting to hurt anyone, I drove off the edge of the track, into empty sky. I felt my chair fall away from me, all around me, nothing but white. I felt myself falling through the empty sky, just for a minute, before finding myself in my chair once again.I looked over and saw Eric in his chair. Like me, he had driven over the edge as well. I went and took a chair closer to him. I didn't want to be separated there. I looked in his eyes. I woke up.

last night i dreamed that my sister found a terrarium with three snakes in it. we had it out on the sidewalk. she left the lid of of the terrarium and they escaped. i tried to find them all and put them back inside. i put the lid back on loosely, one of the snakes' tails was hanging out. before i could gently tuck it back in, a man came and grabbed it out of my hands and shoved the lid down closed, severing the tail. the snake was cut in half, i felt terrible, i screamed at the man. different people kept coming to me and giving me more snakes, which i put in the terrarium. i found a lizard and put it in too. the thing filled with lizards and snakes, even a guinea pig. the snakes kept escaping from different holes and i had to put them back in and back in. one bit me on my leg, a tiny one, and it bled a lot.

later i dreamed that eric and i were out in the city late at night. he was drunk. our potential landlord called to offer us the apartment on mission and eric fucked it up. i woke up and had to figure out that it hadnt actually happened.

i have dreamed about earthquakes three times since eric and i moved to san francisco a week ago.

the first time was the first night in the city. i was in a tall building with some old friends (kelsey & evan et. al.) and it started to sway and eventually fell over, but when it fell it fell slowly, and we drifted down to the ground. we all sat out on the ground by the water waiting for help then. we were all fine and relaxed, none of us hurt. we were playing cards and drinking. i looked in the water and saw that the bridge had collapsed, and there were cars and bodies floating by in the water. i screamed.
the second time was just an afterthought, in the middle of another dream i thought i felt shaking and laid on the ground to try to feel it better.
last night was the third time, i was in a car with someone going down a hill and everything started shaking and the cars breaks stopped and we rolled down the hill and i thought we were going to die but the dream just went on

i went on a trip to the beach with eric and a couple other people. it wasnt really a beach, but tide pools full of all the biggest creatures i've ever seen. the rocks were covered in weird corals and anemones that made my feet tingle when i stepped on them. there were gigantic starfish waving their legs in the air and weird gelatinous creatures that looked like big pulpy flowers. there was even a big octopus.
afterward we stopped at eric's parents house to look for old furniture for our apartment. there were lots of beautiful lamps.
later eric, my family and i took a trip out to the country. a man drove us in his van through big mountains. eric was sad because he found a letter at his parents house from an old friend right before he died. i pet his hair and watched the landscape. in this dream it was always sunset, and the sky reflected in huge crystal lakes between the hills.
the road got smaller and smaller and i started to suspect that the man was going to drive us out to the middle of nowhere and murder us all but we finally came to a little utopia of a town, high up in the hills and the sun was shining and it was warm despite being january. i ran off to explore and found a big pond full of reflected clouds and a thin boardwalk that went out across it, and a grid of thin towers sticking out all around. it was so beautiful i called the others to come see. eric had gone off somewhere but my sister and cousin and mom came, and we swam in the pond.
later eric still hadn't come back and i wondered if i ever would, or if he had just left me. (at this point in the dream i woke up for a second and remembered that he had left only an hour or so earlier for work) i fell back asleep and went into our little cabin with my mom to rest and wait for him to come back. i watched tv in a room filled with junk. a strange girl i didnt know was laying on a bed in another corner of the L shaped room. my mom went out of the room for a minute and all sorts of pornographic commercials came on, and i was nervous that my mom would come in and think i was watching porn so i changed the channel.

last night i dreamed that i was on the moon. i worked out at the gym with heather's cat, sox.

it was nighttime and we were about to go for horseback riding. we chose our horses and some extras which were pink and were ridden by pink glowing women, for extra light or aesthetic or something. we set off, we were in the desert but we couldnt see anything because it was so dark.
in the morning we looked out and saw that we weren't in the desert but at my aunt and uncle's house on bainbridge island. we went out walking, there was a raft ride like those ones at the water park so we took a ride on that, and i wanted to go a second time but nobody would go with me. before we left we went down to our rooms, and when we came back out our rooms were big labyrinths and we had to climb up the walls to get from room to room and at the top of some of the ladders people had signed their names. back into the house it was my parent's house, and i was downstairs and mom was there with sandy and i brought a sampler platter of different flavored cream cheeses and we ate that with some bread before we left.
we were going to leave in a plane. my old friend sat in the row in front  of me. i dont know if it was becca or a cousin or who else. eric sat next to me. my friend in front asked if i would give her my airline snack, and i said no, i wanted it, but she could have my leftover pasta but she didnt want that. when we took off, it wasnt in planes but in our own helicopters. we all followed the leader. it wasnt like we were inside anything but like we had turned into helicopters ourselves. we all flew in line out over some hills and mountains, and there were santas in sleighs complete with reindeers all around, pretending to fly around. most of them were made of christmas lights, and we couldnt figure out why they were there because is january. we got to water and kept flying. there was a pirate ship that started shooting us. we were all hit, but instead of sinking us, we lost little treasures which were symbols made of light that fell out of us into the water. we flew on but it was more difficult then, we all had to make efforts not to sink toward the water.
we started seeing strange lights over the water then. orbs of pink and orange light. we looked out toward the mountains on the horizon, a second sun was setting pink and orange. the supernova must have happened. we decided to fly out toward the east to avoid the lights, but soon ran into an invisible wall. we followed the wall with our hands until i found an opening, which we all went through. slightly beyond that there was another invisible wall. we all flew into the space between the walls. i was afraid that one of the doors would close and we would be separated, but soon more doors in the wall began to open, and from the second wall came in people. they were much larger than we were and walking on the ground, and we realized that we were miniature. we went through the second wall and became normal size. there were paths going up the mountain. i wanted everyone to hurry up and follow me. mochi appeared and ran ahead on the path. i ran to keep up with her, she ran up and up from bush to bush. she was scared. finally i caught her and wanted to pose in a spot where we could see the wall and trees and mountains and mist in the background, to remember the day we crossed into this other world. i sat and waited for my comrades to catch up but they didn't. someone told me that the helicopter people were on strike somewhere down the mountain. i put mochi in my backpack and started down to find them.

i cant quite remember why i was in the dark house, but i couldnt get the lights on, and the floor was all narrow glass paths with low railings, and i had to be careful not to go to fast and fall off, the floor below me was even darker. debbie and her family came over, we were about to go on a trip, we exchanged gifts. i gave her a bottle of white wine in the gold stocking eric's mom gave me for christmas. something about lots of cats, too.

there was a wide dense forest. a young schoolteacher sang with a lilty voice to her students, who were all very round and looked exactly alike with their identical hair and dresses and identical round dream-misty faces. she sung to them a song about herself and themselves, and they were going into the woods to hunt big bullfrogs. she walked through the woods and her flock followed behind her like ducklings. a man watched them walking from far away, and sung his own song, about himself, and making dinner of small round girls and round fat bullfrogs. the man was wrinkled, more from weather than from age, with wide crazy eyes and long hair that was tangled, thinning and gray. when he sung his voice rang out over the forest and frightened the teacher and girls, and they tried to run but everywhere they ran he could see them, he knew the ways of that forest. they ran to a dark shelter to be safe for the night. there were no lights and the man creeped closer, creeped inside, and when he did the two guards who kept lookout from the top floor saw and went down to find him. the teacher hid with her students in the dark, terrified, and when one of the guards came through the darkness toward her she mistook him for her stalker and stabbed him to death. the stalker himself dispatched the other. he captured he group and enslaved them, keeping them hostage in the old building.
the stalker liked to go to the road on dark nights. the road ran along a steep cliff. he liked to hang on the edge of the cliff and watch cars go by, ducking out of sight when they approached. the joy of his new captives made him clumsy this time, and he stayed unhidden a little too long and the headlights caught his wrinkled white face. a neighbor boy stopped to see if the man was okay and followed him back to his lair.
the schoolteacher had fallen into her role as the madman's mistress and they both drank their schoolgirl-bullfrog milkshakes and screwed and when the neighbor boy came over he was clueless because he was just an idiot but they decided to do away with him anyway. the madman pushed over one large wall and it collapsed on top of them all, and everything shook ferociously and their legs all stuck out from under the wall like the wicked witch of the east and spasmed, and the children who still lived cried out as they were crushed, and at this point eric and i were watching the whole scene like a movie, and laughing because the cries of the girls were one infant's recorded cry which repeated and repeated and sounded absurd. when the shaking stopped the schoolteacher and the psychopath got up, and we couldnt remember if the shaking was an earthquake or something else.

(this was 300mg of b6, my largest dose. the dream was vivid and much more paranoid than usual. i woke up scared)

I dreamed that Facebook came out with a line of household organization products. Facebasket: the new wastebasket from Facebook.


we were on a family vacation in a big grungy city and my mom and i were in a fight, and we ran into david and he was mad at me for not sending him enough money as a wedding gift (i gave him 20 dollars) but i reminded everyone that he didnt give me anything for my graduation.


i flew in a helicopter out of a hobby store.

i dreamed that eric was jerry, and i was elaine but eric thought i was george. we waited for the bus together going home from school. someone said we made a glamorous jerry and elaine

took 200mg of b6 and a melotonin last night and dreamed A LOT

took a tropical vacation with eric. we walked down to the beach to go snorkelling and it was sunset. we could see a small island in the water and huge dolphins were swimming all around. we got to the water and i bumped into a dolphin with my knee. the dolphin came back to me and i extended my hand in apology and the dolphin bumped me several times, a playful reciprocity. the dolphin then lifted its head from the water. it was covered in long red fur like a collie.

a "stardust" inspired dream where i was a witch and could fly, and was pursued by other witches for some secret magic talisman

a sailor moon comic book that played out in watercolor.

a bad comedian performing for middle school kids in a mall.