i went on a trip to the beach with eric and a couple other people. it wasnt really a beach, but tide pools full of all the biggest creatures i've ever seen. the rocks were covered in weird corals and anemones that made my feet tingle when i stepped on them. there were gigantic starfish waving their legs in the air and weird gelatinous creatures that looked like big pulpy flowers. there was even a big octopus.
afterward we stopped at eric's parents house to look for old furniture for our apartment. there were lots of beautiful lamps.
later eric, my family and i took a trip out to the country. a man drove us in his van through big mountains. eric was sad because he found a letter at his parents house from an old friend right before he died. i pet his hair and watched the landscape. in this dream it was always sunset, and the sky reflected in huge crystal lakes between the hills.
the road got smaller and smaller and i started to suspect that the man was going to drive us out to the middle of nowhere and murder us all but we finally came to a little utopia of a town, high up in the hills and the sun was shining and it was warm despite being january. i ran off to explore and found a big pond full of reflected clouds and a thin boardwalk that went out across it, and a grid of thin towers sticking out all around. it was so beautiful i called the others to come see. eric had gone off somewhere but my sister and cousin and mom came, and we swam in the pond.
later eric still hadn't come back and i wondered if i ever would, or if he had just left me. (at this point in the dream i woke up for a second and remembered that he had left only an hour or so earlier for work) i fell back asleep and went into our little cabin with my mom to rest and wait for him to come back. i watched tv in a room filled with junk. a strange girl i didnt know was laying on a bed in another corner of the L shaped room. my mom went out of the room for a minute and all sorts of pornographic commercials came on, and i was nervous that my mom would come in and think i was watching porn so i changed the channel.

last night i dreamed that i was on the moon. i worked out at the gym with heather's cat, sox.

it was nighttime and we were about to go for horseback riding. we chose our horses and some extras which were pink and were ridden by pink glowing women, for extra light or aesthetic or something. we set off, we were in the desert but we couldnt see anything because it was so dark.
in the morning we looked out and saw that we weren't in the desert but at my aunt and uncle's house on bainbridge island. we went out walking, there was a raft ride like those ones at the water park so we took a ride on that, and i wanted to go a second time but nobody would go with me. before we left we went down to our rooms, and when we came back out our rooms were big labyrinths and we had to climb up the walls to get from room to room and at the top of some of the ladders people had signed their names. back into the house it was my parent's house, and i was downstairs and mom was there with sandy and i brought a sampler platter of different flavored cream cheeses and we ate that with some bread before we left.
we were going to leave in a plane. my old friend sat in the row in front  of me. i dont know if it was becca or a cousin or who else. eric sat next to me. my friend in front asked if i would give her my airline snack, and i said no, i wanted it, but she could have my leftover pasta but she didnt want that. when we took off, it wasnt in planes but in our own helicopters. we all followed the leader. it wasnt like we were inside anything but like we had turned into helicopters ourselves. we all flew in line out over some hills and mountains, and there were santas in sleighs complete with reindeers all around, pretending to fly around. most of them were made of christmas lights, and we couldnt figure out why they were there because is january. we got to water and kept flying. there was a pirate ship that started shooting us. we were all hit, but instead of sinking us, we lost little treasures which were symbols made of light that fell out of us into the water. we flew on but it was more difficult then, we all had to make efforts not to sink toward the water.
we started seeing strange lights over the water then. orbs of pink and orange light. we looked out toward the mountains on the horizon, a second sun was setting pink and orange. the supernova must have happened. we decided to fly out toward the east to avoid the lights, but soon ran into an invisible wall. we followed the wall with our hands until i found an opening, which we all went through. slightly beyond that there was another invisible wall. we all flew into the space between the walls. i was afraid that one of the doors would close and we would be separated, but soon more doors in the wall began to open, and from the second wall came in people. they were much larger than we were and walking on the ground, and we realized that we were miniature. we went through the second wall and became normal size. there were paths going up the mountain. i wanted everyone to hurry up and follow me. mochi appeared and ran ahead on the path. i ran to keep up with her, she ran up and up from bush to bush. she was scared. finally i caught her and wanted to pose in a spot where we could see the wall and trees and mountains and mist in the background, to remember the day we crossed into this other world. i sat and waited for my comrades to catch up but they didn't. someone told me that the helicopter people were on strike somewhere down the mountain. i put mochi in my backpack and started down to find them.

i cant quite remember why i was in the dark house, but i couldnt get the lights on, and the floor was all narrow glass paths with low railings, and i had to be careful not to go to fast and fall off, the floor below me was even darker. debbie and her family came over, we were about to go on a trip, we exchanged gifts. i gave her a bottle of white wine in the gold stocking eric's mom gave me for christmas. something about lots of cats, too.

there was a wide dense forest. a young schoolteacher sang with a lilty voice to her students, who were all very round and looked exactly alike with their identical hair and dresses and identical round dream-misty faces. she sung to them a song about herself and themselves, and they were going into the woods to hunt big bullfrogs. she walked through the woods and her flock followed behind her like ducklings. a man watched them walking from far away, and sung his own song, about himself, and making dinner of small round girls and round fat bullfrogs. the man was wrinkled, more from weather than from age, with wide crazy eyes and long hair that was tangled, thinning and gray. when he sung his voice rang out over the forest and frightened the teacher and girls, and they tried to run but everywhere they ran he could see them, he knew the ways of that forest. they ran to a dark shelter to be safe for the night. there were no lights and the man creeped closer, creeped inside, and when he did the two guards who kept lookout from the top floor saw and went down to find him. the teacher hid with her students in the dark, terrified, and when one of the guards came through the darkness toward her she mistook him for her stalker and stabbed him to death. the stalker himself dispatched the other. he captured he group and enslaved them, keeping them hostage in the old building.
the stalker liked to go to the road on dark nights. the road ran along a steep cliff. he liked to hang on the edge of the cliff and watch cars go by, ducking out of sight when they approached. the joy of his new captives made him clumsy this time, and he stayed unhidden a little too long and the headlights caught his wrinkled white face. a neighbor boy stopped to see if the man was okay and followed him back to his lair.
the schoolteacher had fallen into her role as the madman's mistress and they both drank their schoolgirl-bullfrog milkshakes and screwed and when the neighbor boy came over he was clueless because he was just an idiot but they decided to do away with him anyway. the madman pushed over one large wall and it collapsed on top of them all, and everything shook ferociously and their legs all stuck out from under the wall like the wicked witch of the east and spasmed, and the children who still lived cried out as they were crushed, and at this point eric and i were watching the whole scene like a movie, and laughing because the cries of the girls were one infant's recorded cry which repeated and repeated and sounded absurd. when the shaking stopped the schoolteacher and the psychopath got up, and we couldnt remember if the shaking was an earthquake or something else.

(this was 300mg of b6, my largest dose. the dream was vivid and much more paranoid than usual. i woke up scared)

I dreamed that Facebook came out with a line of household organization products. Facebasket: the new wastebasket from Facebook.


we were on a family vacation in a big grungy city and my mom and i were in a fight, and we ran into david and he was mad at me for not sending him enough money as a wedding gift (i gave him 20 dollars) but i reminded everyone that he didnt give me anything for my graduation.


i flew in a helicopter out of a hobby store.

i dreamed that eric was jerry, and i was elaine but eric thought i was george. we waited for the bus together going home from school. someone said we made a glamorous jerry and elaine

took 200mg of b6 and a melotonin last night and dreamed A LOT

took a tropical vacation with eric. we walked down to the beach to go snorkelling and it was sunset. we could see a small island in the water and huge dolphins were swimming all around. we got to the water and i bumped into a dolphin with my knee. the dolphin came back to me and i extended my hand in apology and the dolphin bumped me several times, a playful reciprocity. the dolphin then lifted its head from the water. it was covered in long red fur like a collie.

a "stardust" inspired dream where i was a witch and could fly, and was pursued by other witches for some secret magic talisman

a sailor moon comic book that played out in watercolor.

a bad comedian performing for middle school kids in a mall.

down in the bottom of a little cave there was a time machine. we got down in a little basket on a pulley system. the machine stood on the edge of a deeper abyss, and had a little sandy platform where i arranged small crystals to control the destination of the machine. i tried to bring some friends to see the machine. we rode bikes and as we rode more and more people joined in. too many people to show the machine, so i took everyone to see an ordinary cave instead. later, i came out of the time machine cave onto a small country road. eric was there and some others. a large bus was coming down the dirt road and a giant red cat ran out in front. the front tire missed the cat but the back one rolled over him and he popped with a grotesque sound. i went into hysterics and screamed and cried and threw myself flailing on the ground.